What am I thankful for?
I'm thankful for home. I'm thankful for my amazing family and wonderful best friends. I'm thankful for grace. I'm thankful that at the end of a hard day I can come home and go for a long run in God's great creation and receive emails from amazing women who truly care about me. I'm thankful for God's healing through these rough patches I'm experiencing in life. It's funny...for a little while I'll feel so "on track," and then I'll go through times where I feel distant. Distant from the plans God has for me, distant because I'm wrapped up in things in the world, distant because I'm not putting God first in my love life, and distant because I'm still trying to understand why people have to go through so much suffering before God calls them home. I miss my Grandpa more and more every day. It's getting difficult. What's even more difficult to realize sometimes is that God can take that hurt on for me. I just need to give it to Him.
But why is it so hard for me to give everything in my life up to better hands? I've been good about it this year, but there are some things I am still struggling to let go of. My sin, my life, my time, and my heart. My heart isn't anyone else's in this world. Heck, I don't even know my heart as much as God does. That's a crazy thing.
I've learned a lot about intimidation and frustration lately. and you know what? I'm thankful for that too.
Funny thing is , I'm really glad I can be content in saying that I don't have it all together.
