the cry of my heart.

There comes a point in life when you just have to give it all away. Give everything you have to the hand of something and someone greater than anything in this world. Realize that nothing in this world...absolutely nothing will be there to catch you when everything falls apart.





Therefore he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
-2 Corinthians 12:9

so thanks, thanks for that summer...

i love summer.

this one is definitely full of the unexpected. and i love it.
i love being with my bests again. those girls just complete me.

God has given me so much consistency with things, and I like it.

:)

because You got to me in a way words can't describe

I should probably be asleep. It's one thirty in the morning. goodness.

I can't believe it's already the last week of my first year of college. When I think back on everything about this year, it is honestly one big blur currently. It's hard to understand how time can go so quickly sometimes.

I think that's my problem. Time is flying too quickly for me because I am always looking ahead into the future. Always looking for what is to come instead of what is happening right now. Staying true to the "live in the moment" or "take each day one at a time" statements is something I have not mastered yet. This is probably why I find myself trying to understand why I can't fully comprehend all that God is working for in my life. I am always looking for what He WILL do. Not what He IS doing at this very moment. God's got that bigger plan for me. He has it all under control and it will play out as He sees fit. I have to trust fully in Him and in nothing or no one else. And to think, I thought I was a pretty patient person!

Trust is key in this situation. Today at Northstar a woman named Mary was praying for/with myself, Sonja, and Kayla. The Spirit was so amazing in that moment. Throughout the whole service I struggled to fully grasp the thought that surrendering our full identities to Jesus and taking full refuge and trust in Him is what leads us closer to ourselves and to His will for us. I didn't even have to say anything and Mary knew exactly what I was feeling. What each of us women were feeling. She explained to us during prayer that as young women, it is hard for us to put all of our trust and being into something that isn't earthly. It is easy for us to be vulnerable and afraid of getting let down. But Jesus is the one true thing that is always there. He won't ever break the promise--we can be vulnerable. God continues to find and has found his identity in us even before he created us. What this amazing woman said may already be obvious to you, but I have found it to be pretty reassuring. :)

and THAT is why my Sunday (well, early Monday morning, too, in this case) has been quite amazing.




Oh, how He loves us.

I am truly blessed.


God is good.

Love.

One good love
You bless all my memories
You soften the fall of my tears
And in my arms you’re more than enough
You’re one good love

One good love
And born again means more than pass the plate and bow your head
Yes, you bury what needs burying, you raise it from the dead
The very best, you heal the brokenness, give grace to everyone
With one good love



it's funny when you realize a lot more about a song you've heard a million times.

and it's slowly getting warmer...

I think Spring Break went by too quickly. This weekend in Columbus was awesome, and Gatlinburg was more than amazing. I couldn’t have asked for better people to go with. Even with the accident and the detours here and there on the way down, everyone stayed so strong while we worked through it together. I am so thankful for them :). In fact, I’m just thankful for UC and the Navs community in general. When I first came here I was so worried that it wouldn’t be the right fit or that I wouldn’t find people I could become close to. I came with the worry that I’d end up going home every weekend and spend every night of the week doing homework and sitting around with people I have already known in High School. Thankfully I was very wrong :). I have met so many amazing friends and become close to some people that are now very very important to me :). I think smiley faces are my thing this morning.

This quarter should be interesting. I am going into this new environment not knowing what to expect. I had become so used to the same people in my classes and the classes I was taking for my “ex” major these past two quarters. I am now totally out of my comfort zone. In fact, I’m sitting here in the halls of CCM waiting for class and feeling pretty small. Maybe it’s because I am unsure as to where my classes exactly are, or maybe it’s because I just turned in my acceptance decision papers and am officially doing this, or maybe it’s because I feel like everyone that passes me looks at me and says to themselves “why is she here?” And then I realize oh my gosh Cait, these people don’t even know you! Haha, I should really stop getting myself worked up.

I have had such a struggle this year listening to God and just trusting. I have struggled so much with making plans for myself instead of just waiting for His guidance. Lately though, I feel like I am improving, and I am so thankful. I have realized that especially when dealing with the sickness of those closest to me, it’s all a part of God’s plan that’s a lot bigger than me.

I’m not bad at meeting new people, so why am I so nervous?

Love.

itching for spring...

I've come to the conclusion that when an opportunity just falls into my lap, i should probably take a chance on it. There have been about five instances in the past few weeks that just appear for me. God works in crazy, crazy ways. :)

I think I may finally know where I fit.

Spring break is going to be so awesome. I am looking forward to spending time in Gatlinburg with some of my favorite people in the whole world:)

Here's to you free souls, fire fly chasers
Tree climbers, porch swingers, air guitar players
Heres to you fearless dancers, shaking walls in your bedrooms
There's alot of wonder left inside of me and you
Thank God even crazy dreams come true 

"But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him."

yep, it's that easy.